Moonlight (저달)

 Korean

Yeah yeah 
Okay okay okay okay 
3년이 지났네 Agust D
예 솔직히 몇 곡 넣을지 잘 모르겠어 시발 그냥 하는거지 뭐 
Okay okay 그럼 leggo leggo okay

시작은 초라했지 대구 그래 남산동 지하
에서 이제는 펜트하우스 한남 더힐 ha
아직도 꿈에서 깨지 못하는 피터팬
내 머릿속 현실은 이상과 싸워 지겹게
내 가장 큰 적은 속 안의 화
그보다 더 지독한 내 안의 게으름과의 싸움
가끔씩 신께 원망해 왜 이런 삶을 살게 한 지
내가 뭐를 하는지 음악은 사랑하는지

가끔씩 되물어 돌아갈 수만 있음
돌아갈 거냐고 글쎄 그건 고민 좀
내가 가진 게 쉽게 얻은 것 같다가
시발 개고생 한 거 보상받는 것 같다만
난 아직 고파 이게 업보인가
존나 높게 나니 느껴지는 공허함
남산동에서 시작한 지 10년은 더 지났지만
그때랑 똑같네 머리가 복잡한 건 fuck that

새벽에 맞는 저 달빛
여전히 그때와 같네
내 삶은 많은 게 변했지만 뭐
저 달빛은 여전히 그대로라고

새벽에 맞는 저 달빛
여전히 그때와 같네
변화는 모두에게 필연적이지
어떻게 변해가는지가 우리의 업일지도

가끔씩 내가 천재인 것 같다가도
가끔씩 내가 재능이 없는 것 같기도 해 
어떨 땐 곡이 미친듯이 나오다가 다시
막힐 때는 한없이 또 막히더라구 맞아 지금도
Verse1 은 존나 빠르게 썼는데도
Verse2 는 진짜 안 나오네 쥐어짜도
인생도 마찬가지겠지 모 아니면 도 
어차피 평행은 없어 선택의 문제라고

영원은 존재하지 않겠지 그 무엇도 
불멸의 존재는 존나게 부담스럽고
그냥 음악이 좋아서 시작한 게 단데
내게 붙이는 수식어들은 가끔은 버겁네

어쩌겠어 그냥 달려야지 뭐
어쩌겠어 꽉 쥔 건 잡아야지 뭐
어쩌겠어 받은 건 갚아야지 뭐
부딪힐 것 같으면 더 세게 밟아 임마

새벽에 맞는 저 달빛
여전히 그때와 같네
내 삶은 많은 게 변했지만 뭐
저 달빛은 여전히 그대로라고

새벽에 맞는 저 달 빛
여전히 그때와 같네
변화는 모두에게 필연적이지
어떻게 변해가는지가 우리의 업일지도

English

Yeah, yeah 
Okay, okay, okay, okay 
It’s been 3 years, Agust D 
Honestly I don’t know how many tracks to put in, dammit I’m just doing it
Okay, okay then, leggo, leggo, okay

My beginnings were humble, from a basement in Namsandong, Daegu 
Now to a Penthouse in Hannam The Hill* ha
Still a Peter Pan that can't wake up from his dream
Inside my head reality fights with the ideal until I'm tired of it
My biggest enemy is the anger inside 
A fight against the even more terrible laziness inside of me 
Sometimes I resent God, why has he made me live this kind of life?
What am I doing, do I even love music?

Sometimes I ask myself again, if I could just go back 
Would I go back? I’m not sure, I’ll have to think about it a little more
Sometimes I feel like I’ve gotten the things I have too easily, but then 
I think that shit, I’ve worked f*cking hard and I’m being compensated for it
I’m still hungry, is this karma? 
Now that I’m flying so f*cking high, I feel empty 
It’s been more than 10 years since I started at Namsandong but 
Just like back then, my head’s still a mess, f*ck that

The moonlight that I bathe in at dawn 
Is still the same as it was then 
A lot of things have changed in my life but, well 
The moonlight is still the same it’s always been

The moonlight that I bathe in at dawn 
Is still the same as it was then
Change is inevitable for everyone 
What we change into is perhaps our karma

Sometimes I think I’m a genius, but 
Sometimes I also think that I don’t have any talent 
Sometimes songs will just come out like crazy, but then again
When I’m stuck I just keep getting stuck, that’s right, even now
I wrote Verse 1 so f*cking quick but 
Verse 2 just won’t come out, no matter how much I wrack my brain
Life is probably the same, all or nothing
In any case, there are no parallels, it’s all about choices

‘Forever’ probably doesn’t exist, no matter what it is 
The idea of an immortal existence is a huge f*cking burden 
I started this just because I liked music, that was it, but now
All these titles attached to me are sometimes too much to handle

Well, what can you do, just gotta keep running 
Well, what can you do, just gotta grasp what you've caught hold of
Well, what can you do, just gotta repay what you’ve received
If you feel like you’re going to crash then accelerate harder, you idiot**

The moonlight that I bathe in at dawn 
Is still the same as it was then 
A lot of things have changed in my life but, well 
The moonlight is still the same it’s always been

The moonlight that I bathe in at dawn 
Is still the same as it was then
Change is inevitable for everyone 
How we change could be our karma

Translator’s Notes:

* Hannam The Hill is a luxury apartment complex in one of the most expensive areas in Seoul.
** This line is from ‘Nevermind’ in ‘The Most Beautiful Moment in Life Pt.2’.